*NB* I know the topic of feeding can be a sensitive one. My intention is not to offend or to argue for a particular 'side' but to put forward my opinion and experience with this subject.
Only when my daughter was 5 months old could I honestly and confidently say that choosing not to breastfeed was the best decision I could have made. For a long time I let breastfeeding torment me and make me feel like a failure as a mother. I would tell people that I ‘couldn’t breastfeed’ or that ‘Alice wasn’t having any of it’ when perhaps even then deep down I knew this wasn’t entirely true. I could have continued to try and feed her despite the pain, I could have felt miserable and anxious and perhaps ruined my marriage but I chose to do something else instead. I chose to be happy. I have discovered that motherhood is nothing like you plan, there will be lots of things you want to do or insist you won’t do as a mother and you will end up hurting yourself because you will break these promises to yourself. It is inevitable, I didn’t think I placed any expectations on myself but I did subconsciously. You cannot plan a life for three people when the third person isn’t here yet to have their say. Motherhood is hard enough without weighing yourself down with unmet expectations that are either out of your control or are unmet because of decisions you made yourself.